December 2008. Close to 2 years but I still cant stop think and maybe waiting for the oncol to tell me that the cancer is back. I don't want to think about the cancer, I want to get on with work and life in general. However the thoughts always seem to seek in.Is there anyone else having this trouble. How long will it last. Or does it ever go away? Whats the secret?
I am also close to 2 years finishing, and still have times where i think it might come back, but i just try and stay positive, and by comming onto this site and reading other ladies stories, it always makes it a bit easier. I dont think there is a time limit, everyone has a different journey and different experiences, but at least you have come on here and expressed your feelings, writing down fears sometimes helps. so thank you for joining us, and remember by comming on here to help yourself, you will always be able to help other women who are just starting the journey you have made, so please feel free to add me to your contacts, and give me a yell if there is anything i can help you with. regards Moira
I am also close to 2 years finishing, and still have times where i think it might come back, but i just try and stay positive, and by comming onto this site and reading other ladies stories, it always makes it a bit easier. I dont think there is a time limit, everyone has a different journey and different experiences, but at least you have come on here and expressed your feelings, writing down fears sometimes helps. so thank you for joining us, and remember by comming on here to help yourself, you will always be able to help other women who are just starting the journey you have made, so please feel free to add me to your contacts, and give me a yell if there is anything i can help you with. regards Moira
Hi and welcome. I saw your comments last evening and I felt I needed to add something for you. Like Moira says everyone is different. It is nearly 4 years since my diagnosis but I still have ongoing treatment ie medications and minor surgeries. Even if I wanted "it" to go away it looks like that will not be the case. I have tried to stay very positive and only look for positives in my journey. However, it did take quite a while for me to stop "churning" out the songs for my funeral and thinking who might attend. (I got a bit peeved to think that all my family and friends would be together and I wouldn't be able to enjoy the occasion) Anyway I changed this around by having all these family and friends at our wedding 3 years ago. So that got me over that hurdle. I have lost a very dear friend to this curse but her courage has also inspired me to live a very good life. She was ever so sick for the last 5 years of her life but she never gave up, never complained and never mentioned dying. She was living!!! Most of my family think "it" is all behind me but of course we will live with cancer until the end. My experience in meeting such wonderful survivors and being able to be part of BCNA as a Community Liaison Officer just enhances my life and my journey. I set myself a 5 year plan when I was diagnosed and I'm sticking to it. Each year my husband and I do/go somewhere different. I just keep on planning. I'm going to retire next year at age 55 - something I never dreamt of - so I can LIVE LIVE life to the fullest!!!! Take care - please add me as a contact if you think I may be able to support you further. XLeonie
Hi and welcome. I saw your comments last evening and I felt I needed to add something for you. Like Moira says everyone is different. It is nearly 4 years since my diagnosis but I still have ongoing treatment ie medications and minor surgeries. Even if I wanted "it" to go away it looks like that will not be the case. I have tried to stay very positive and only look for positives in my journey. However, it did take quite a while for me to stop "churning" out the songs for my funeral and thinking who might attend. (I got a bit peeved to think that all my family and friends would be together and I wouldn't be able to enjoy the occasion) Anyway I changed this around by having all these family and friends at our wedding 3 years ago. So that got me over that hurdle. I have lost a very dear friend to this curse but her courage has also inspired me to live a very good life. She was ever so sick for the last 5 years of her life but she never gave up, never complained and never mentioned dying. She was living!!! Most of my family think "it" is all behind me but of course we will live with cancer until the end. My experience in meeting such wonderful survivors and being able to be part of BCNA as a Community Liaison Officer just enhances my life and my journey. I set myself a 5 year plan when I was diagnosed and I'm sticking to it. Each year my husband and I do/go somewhere different. I just keep on planning. I'm going to retire next year at age 55 - something I never dreamt of - so I can LIVE LIVE life to the fullest!!!! Take care - please add me as a contact if you think I may be able to support you further. XLeonie
I too, as we all do, live with the fear of this curse that turned our whole lives upside down returning one day. I have my 2yr Mammogram next week and 2yr Oncology Appt the following week and this time of the year it seems for me is the most depressive, I get very unsettled and everyone around me notices but I dont think they quite understand the turmoil that we go thru. I just have to keep my head up and get on with the worthwhile and wonderful task of living life to the full. I do believe that ups and downs are all part of the process but for some we feel more up than down and for others we feel more down than up. But thinking about it right now, you know, I woke up this morning and the sun is shining and I am alive. Lets take each day as it comes and make the absolute most of it. :) Keep talking, Annie, to us on BCNA as we are all travelling a similar path and are here to help each other. Please feel free to add as a contact and Take Care
Annie
Well done for getting through the two years! Such a battle isn't it? Not only do we have to keep moving forward as normal as possible but we also have to keep up appearance for the family. I live in fear of this coming back - and I'm still doing radiation as I was only diagnosed in August this year. I guess the fear will never go away. Maybe we just have to accept it. I read on a web site recently that BC is most likely to reoccur at the 2 year mark - if at all.
