Hi Lyn
Sorry you are feeling down. I felt the same and was really self conscience in clothes and god forbid if you kids asked me to do up their shoelaces and had to bend over (this would instill fear in me) that someone would see my scars, hollow etc.
Where abouts are you that you are on a wait list? Check out the website Breast Angels, I do not have too much info, but they (and I could be wrong) believe that no women should have to wait for a reconstruction. I am assuming you are a public patient. I was private, but only stepped up my converage 6 months prior and was out of pocket $267.00. Maybe that is an option too.
For the record reconstruction has given me back some confidence, but there is still no way my husband is gonna see these with the scars from my armpit to the centre of my chest.. So whilst I am happy that I have had the reconstruction, they are still a long way from perfect. I have a sticker on my wall that says "hell yer, they are fake, the real ones almost cost me my life".
Sorry you are feeling crap, BC has given you enough grief. I will do some research when you tell me which state you are in and see if someone knows there way around the system. I don't take no for an answer very often any more.
Talk soon.
Tanya xx