Mountain Lions

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Sister
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Back in the early days of treatment (the day after my second surgery, in fact), I tried to post this from my phone as it really spoke to me and I thought others would get it.  @soldiercrab came to my rescue with the entire article.  Given the current struggles of a number of people on this site and the newbies, I thought it might be worth putting up again for those who haven't seen it.

Cancer: the mountain lion in your fridge by Caitlin Feeley

What’s it like to go through cancer treatment? It’s something like this: one day, you’re minding your own business, you open the fridge to get some breakfast, and OH MY GOD THERE’S A MOUNTAIN LION IN YOUR FRIDGE.

Wait, what? How? Why is there a mountain lion in your fridge? NO TIME TO EXPLAIN. RUN! THE MOUNTAIN LION WILL KILL YOU! UNLESS YOU FIND SOMETHING EVEN MORE FEROCIOUS TO KILL IT FIRST!

So you take off running, and the mountain lion is right behind you. You know the only thing that can kill a mountain lion is a bear, and the only bear is on top of the mountain, so you better find that bear. You start running up the mountain in hopes of finding the bear. Your friends desperately want to help, but they are powerless against mountain lions, as mountain lions are godless killing machines. But they really want to help, so they’re cheering you on and bringing you paper cups of water and orange slices as you run up the mountain and yelling at the mountain lion - “GET LOST, MOUNTAIN LION, NO ONE LIKES YOU” - and you really appreciate the support, but the mountain lion is still coming.

Also, for some reason, there’s someone in the crowd who’s yelling “that’s not really a mountain lion, it’s a puma” and another person yelling “I read that mountain lions are allergic to kale, have you tried rubbing kale on it?”

As you’re running up the mountain, you see other people fleeing their own mountain lions. Some of the mountain lions seem comparatively wimpy - they’re half grown and only have three legs or whatever, and you think to yourself - why couldn’t I have gotten one of those mountain lions? But then you look over at the people who are fleeing mountain lions the size of a monster truck with huge prehistoric saber fangs, and you feel like an asshole for even thinking that - and besides, who in their right mind would want to fight a mountain lion, even a three-legged one?

Finally, the person closest to you, whose job it is to take care of you - maybe a parent or sibling or best friend or, in my case, my husband - comes barging out of the woods and jumps on the mountain lion, whaling on it and screaming “GODDAMMIT MOUNTAIN LION, STOP TRYING TO EAT MY WIFE,” and the mountain lion punches your husband right in the face. Now your husband (or whatever) is rolling around on the ground clutching his nose, and he’s bought you some time, but you still need to get to the top of the mountain.

Eventually you reach the top, finally, and the bear is there. Waiting. For both of you. You rush right up to the bear, and the bear rushes the mountain lion, but the bear has to go through you to get to the mountain lion, and in doing so, the bear TOTALLY KICKS YOUR ASS, but not before it also punches your husband in the face. And your husband is now staggering around with a black eye and bloody nose, and saying “can I get some help, I’ve been punched in the face by two apex predators and I think my nose is broken,” and all you can say is “I’M KIND OF BUSY IN CASE YOU HADN’T NOTICED I’M FIGHTING A MOUNTAIN LION.”

Then, IF YOU ARE LUCKY, the bear leaps on the mountain lion and they are locked in epic battle until finally the two of them roll off a cliff edge together, and the mountain lion is dead. 

Maybe. You’re not sure - it fell off the cliff, but mountain lions are crafty. It could come back at any moment.

And all your friends come running up to you and say “that was amazing! You’re so brave, we’re so proud of you! You didn’t die! That must be a huge relief!” 
Meanwhile, you blew out both your knees, you’re having an asthma attack, you twisted your ankle, and also you have been mauled by a bear. And everyone says “boy, you must be excited to walk down the mountain!” And all you can think as you stagger to your feet is “fuck this mountain, I never wanted to climb it in the first place.”

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I wrote this a couple of weeks ago about my experience with cancer treatment.  My dear friend Dread Pirate Khan reposted it from my facebook and it seems to have spoken to a lot of people, so I’m putting it here for posterity.


https//somehedgehog.tumblr.com/post/119415185391/cancer-the-mountain-lion-in-your-fridge 

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  • JoeyLiz
    JoeyLiz Member Posts: 339 ✭
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    Wow, that is really powerful! I'm all teary. I might use that in my presentation.
  • Sister
    Sister Member Posts: 4,960 ✭
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    I found it very powerful at the time and when I revisited it, it was even more so.
  • j9k
    j9k Member Posts: 98 ✭
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    That's amazing @Sister. Totally nails it.  :/
  • Fionap2017
    Fionap2017 Member Posts: 64 ✭
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    Best description of breast cancer I’ve read!
  • tigerbeth
    tigerbeth Member Posts: 539 ✭
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    love it !!

  • kmakm
    kmakm Member Posts: 7,974 ✭
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    Loved it before, love it still. When I sent it to my husband he loved it as well.
  • Annie C
    Annie C Member Posts: 849 ✭
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    @Sister
    A wonderful analogy of breast cancer that speaks to all affected by BC.

    I have printed it out and pasted it in my journal. I do love the reference to kale! 

    I just pray that all those on the sidelines supposedly cheering us on understand the references to how positive and strong and brave we must be.
    Take care all
    Annie

  • lrb_03
    lrb_03 Member Posts: 1,267 ✭
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    I've seen it before and loved it, and love it still

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