Countdown to Mastectomy
Well I have started the countdown to my double mastectomy! Is on 23rd July and have worked out that tonight is 12 sleeps to go! Feel like a kid counting down to Christmas although know that the outcome will not be quite the same!! Although in some ways I feel like I have received the biggest present I could have - the oppportunity to take control of my own destiny!!
My decision to have them removed becomes clearer each day and feel like I have a weight off my shoulders already.
I have lived with the family history consciously hanging over my head for the past 21 years since Mum's last breast cancer (although in reality i was 12 when Mum had her 1st breast cancer - so probably in fact has been in my world for 34 years!) After being diagnosed myself this year at 45 I don't want to continually wonder when it is coming back!!!
People say I am amazing and brave doing what I am doing, but I don't feel I am being brave, I figure it is a small price to pay for not having to look over my shoulder for the rest of my life and to have the opportunity to be around 34 years later as my mother still is!!
Will see what emotions next week brings............