ok... So today....just for today.... I'm gonna allow myself to be a sook
no , there's no new treatment to face, no harrowing news to face off against, no horrible side effects to frighten me. But today my son moved out of home, out of town, 1500km away, to start a new job.....
- He's the son who turned down the last job when I was diagnosed, told the boss he just had to be there for his mum
- He's the son who sat by my side while we waited for that really painful radioactive injection to identify which lymph node to take. Whenever I started to lose it, he'd gently put his hand on my shoulder & say "it's ok Mum, we're gonna get through this..."
- He's the son who laughed at my drug addled ramblings after surgery & too many pain killers
- He's the son who came in to chemo with me... the nurse took one look at this tall strong man and said "you don't need a body guard" and my son quite seriously told her "don't you hurt my Mum"
- He's the son who would quietly open the bedroom door on those days after chemo when I couldn't face the world, just to check that I was ok
and I am ok, more than ok, I'm so so SO grateful that he was here as my protector, my champion when I really needed him. My wish for each of you lovely ladies is that you too have a champion, that dear person who has your back no matter what.
I'm grateful that my son taking a new job is the start of good things to come in our lives....so I'm just gonna feel the loss of him for this day... or maybe for this week....but still, always grateful ??