You certainly have had a lot to experience and I welcome you to a wonderful opportunity to reach out and share you thoughts. On this website you have a support network, information, and ways to connect with locals who understand what you are feeling. It will be up to you, to make contact as it suits you. I really found speaking to volunteers, counsellors, and having cups of tea with other women near my own age, a huge benefit at the Cancer Council.
One day at a time and one breath at a time, we all find a hidden strength that is quite surprising. For times when we dont have it, there is always a good ol cry into a tissue, I found that helped.......I hope you too will be kind to yourself, and give yourself recovery time. Happier days ahead... Bel