Hello there Meghan. I just read your message about how you are feeling since your op. You have been through a harrowing time and what I found is that we need to be kind to ourselves. Just because we may have lost those bits that to us make us woman we are still the same person that we have always been both on the inside and on the outside. We are no less a mum or a nan and I know my granddaughter sees me as exactly the same as I was 12 months ago. Even though she know Nannies booby was sick and the medicine made me loose my hair! I am still Nanny and that is what counts. I know what you mean about struggling as now that my treatment is finished I am thinking...well what now? I gave up my job to concentrate on my health and now feel a bit lost. Take each day as it comes for the moment and certainly keep in touch. Yvonne