I have only posted a few discussions since joining the network however I just wanted to let you all know that I have spent many hours being comforted and reassured by you all offering your experience, advise and sometimes candid hatred for this sh.. disease! Today however I am really struggling. Over the last two years I have watched my mum struggle with her own cancer battle and resulting dementia. She is in residential care and I have been unable to share with her what is going on with me. My dad has been living by himself for the past two years and has been my rock. I live interstate so haven't been able to travel to see them. My dad is estranged from my sister and until last week I too had not spoken to her for two years. I spoke to dad everyday at the same time so when he missed his call last night I knew something was wrong. I had been planning to go and visit as soon as my treatment was finished. I was pretty sick through chemo and I am now half way through rads. My dad passed away last night, alone at home by himself. This ******* disease didn't let me get another visit in. A couple of weeks ago I received my results back from my prosigna (genome test) which indicated that I had a luminal b high risk 41% reoccurrence probability within the next ten years. Today I just feel that it has not been worth it and am really doubting myself. I know this will pass as I have a good support group around me and I have been seeing a psychologist as many of you have pointed out can be invaluable. I just want to take this opportunity to thank you all for taking the time to care by sharing. Comments may not be directly related to me but without this network and all you wonderful ladies I don't think I would have coped. Thank you all so much and **** cancer! (sorry I hope I don't offend anyone).
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