Second post - WTF - not what I wanted to hear
A massive massive thanks to those of you who replied to my first blog - I cried when I read your responses, and am so grateful to you all for taking the time to respond.
So I was at the hairdressers today getting all my hair cut off, when my surgeon called me with the results and they were not the ones I was hoping for. Dammit! All a bit of a blur but I've since called her back and asked her to email through so I can digest it properly, but I have to go back for more surgery. Something about DCIS tumors found and cancer in the lymph node. So wishing I'd had the mastectomy now, but no point regretting now. Still have to wait till Friday for my appt with her and discuss what happens next but she said I could have surgery next week, which I'm sure I will do, just want to keep moving ahead.
dammit, dammit dammit. and lots of other bad words too. can't tell the kids yet, will wait till friday's appt when we know more, but why do they have to see me go through this, so not fair!!! And friggin Naplan for all 3 of them next week, bloody brilliant.... At least their schools are not fussing over that, so I hope they won't stress out about it either. I've told them it's not important.
Anyway, off to sport and a mothers day 'do" at school tonight, put on a brave face. Soldier on, be strong, all that stuff. feel sick inside though...